Moon square/opposite Lilith

Denying your fears

Anything that has to do with the Moon (emotions, feelings, fears, the mother, childhood, safety, nurturing, the breasts, digestive and reproductive system, insecurities, the house and how one is feeling about the childhood place) could be possible areas affected by black Moon Lilith. 

A subject with Moon in hard aspect to Lilith, sometimes conjunctions also, can be vulnerable because of the pains they endured in their childhood, probably inflicted by the mother. But they will not admit this vulnerability within themselves. They have a tendency to renege their family or move away quickly in their youth. Or they can wish to become parents and then having feelings of regrets or even abandon their children but in many cases not physically. It is very possible that their own mother was distant or inaccessible and they were not feeling her maternal protection. So they can become the type of parents that treats their own children exactly the way their mother was treating them.

Moon afflicted by Lilith will make the person incredibly selfish, rather choosing their own happiness above dear ones, thus the resentment and hurt feelings of their family.

'They may be asked to choose between mother and spouse, child and lover or family and spiritual path. Exceptional demands may be made of them to make heartbreaking decisions'.
 I think this paragraph resonates perfectly with the relationship i share with my mother. She have Moon square Lilith and I perceive her as being either on my side or on my father's side. I was feeling hurt every time she sided with him. She is at odds with her emotional side and i see her as being incapable of expressing her love towards me or towards others. It is not like she doesn't have those deep feelings for us but rather feeling stunned anytime she had to show them.

Moon in hard aspect with Lilith can bring all kinds of emotional problems in family or with the mother, the house and the emotional blockages (the subject can have big difficulties building his own house and he can live for big periods of time in rent or he will hardly obtain his own place). Huge difficulties in expressing his emotional nature. They can live with the impression that they are in some kind of danger in any environment at any given time. Women can have the breast size complex while the men can be obsessed with a woman's breasts. Deep fears of drowning. Problems with nutrition and fertility issues.

Let's not forget the perverted nature of Lilith and how it can play in someone's sexual life. It can literally go from heaven to hell in one night. Being too horny one moment and completely retreat in the next. Being rather submissive and attracting all kinds of perverted or addicted partners who will take pleasure in sexually dominate you or involve you in all kinds of sexual experiences. You can love those kind of experiences only to deeply regret it and feel guilty some time after.

Recognizing and accepting the fears within yourself will help you to develop your emotional side and to freely express your emotions!