Moon square/opposite Lilith

Denying your fears

Anything that has to do with the Moon (emotions, feelings, fears, the mother, childhood, safety, nurturing, the breasts, digestive and reproductive system, insecurities, the house and how one is feeling about the childhood place) could be possible areas affected by black Moon Lilith. 

A subject with Moon in hard aspect to Lilith, sometimes conjunctions also, can be vulnerable because of the pains they endured in their childhood, probably inflicted by the mother. But they will not admit this vulnerability within themselves. They have a tendency to renege their family or move away quickly in their youth. Or they can wish to become parents and then having feelings of regrets or even abandon their children but in many cases not physically. It is very possible that their own mother was distant or inaccessible and they were not feeling her maternal protection. So they can become the type of parents that treats their own children exactly the way their mother was treating them.

Moon afflicted by Lilith will make the person incredibly selfish, rather choosing their own happiness above dear ones, thus the resentment and hurt feelings of their family.

'They may be asked to choose between mother and spouse, child and lover or family and spiritual path. Exceptional demands may be made of them to make heartbreaking decisions'.
 I think this paragraph resonates perfectly with the relationship i share with my mother. She have Moon square Lilith and I perceive her as being either on my side or on my father's side. I was feeling hurt every time she sided with him. She is at odds with her emotional side and i see her as being incapable of expressing her love towards me or towards others. It is not like she doesn't have those deep feelings for us but rather feeling stunned anytime she had to show them.

Moon in hard aspect with Lilith can bring all kinds of emotional problems in family or with the mother, the house and the emotional blockages (the subject can have big difficulties building his own house and he can live for big periods of time in rent or he will hardly obtain his own place). Huge difficulties in expressing his emotional nature. They can live with the impression that they are in some kind of danger in any environment at any given time. Women can have the breast size complex while the men can be obsessed with a woman's breasts. Deep fears of drowning. Problems with nutrition and fertility issues.

Let's not forget the perverted nature of Lilith and how it can play in someone's sexual life. It can literally go from heaven to hell in one night. Being too horny one moment and completely retreat in the next. Being rather submissive and attracting all kinds of perverted or addicted partners who will take pleasure in sexually dominate you or involve you in all kinds of sexual experiences. You can love those kind of experiences only to deeply regret it and feel guilty some time after.

Recognizing and accepting the fears within yourself will help you to develop your emotional side and to freely express your emotions!

Sun in 12th house

Nourishing the ego

I have a 12th house sun. Living in my own world is something that i used to do from a young age. It's a form of escaping the harsh reality. I go there in my perfect world every time i don't like my day to day life. To be honest i could say i live two total different lives. The one in my head and the real one.

I have great imagination and i am full of dreams. I like to imagine how one day i will travel the world and experience all kinds of emotions, places, people and all these will serve me to grow.

I used to have a couple of close friends but i decided to cut myself out of all hangouts because i was not feeling myself. 

My energy seems to grow weak while in company of other people. To recharge myself, i need my space. I need to retreat. I need to be alone with my thoughts.

Actually the contact with the outside world makes me loose my energy quite quickly!

Only one thing is certain having Sun in 12th house. Living isolated in a form or another is all about this house. Either by staying in my own world or choosing to work in a secluded place or simply isolating myself from the rest of the world.

I chose the least. I am happy about it? Yes and no, i would say.

Happy because it feels so liberating by being with myself but some other times i feel the need to share those deep thoughts and needs with someone as deep and real as i am.

Natal Sun in the 12th house people see and feel EVERYTHING. They are the quiet observers at the dinner table. They won't talk much and most definitely they will reveal nothing. This projection to the outer world can make them feel invisible and ignored by the others. They have mixed feelings about it. They love the given opportunity to observe and listen but they hates it sometimes because they have dreams about being someone important, the center of others attention. The way of asserting their attention is mentioned by the Sun sign. If, let's say someone's Sun is in Cancer that need will be centered around people dear to them. They want others to talk about them as being the nourisher of the group or family. They are sensitive providers. Or maybe their sun sign is Sagittarius and they will shine by getting recognized and appreciated through their philosophies of life, expanded ideas, ideals, travelings or even religion.

What amazes me the most about Sun in 12th is the self-awareness they can reach. While a 1st house Sun may only feel good when they take care of their external self, their looks and manners, a 12th Sun will feel the imperial need to be alone with their thoughts very often, in order to recharge and feel good about themselves. Only then they can face the world at their best. They care immensely about their inner world more than anything else and how to grow soulfully. They understand the reasons and motives of people like no others. They are forgiving and compassionate. They can have well developed artistic sense and also posses huge imagination. They are natural empaths. They feel good helping people. 
Don't get fooled if you see a 12th Sun person who seems aloof, cold and spaced out. If you invest in knowing them, they are some of the best people you can hope to have in your life, if you happen to reach them! They are the most capable of building up other people, enhance or enlighten their capabilities. 

Have i already said how good they can be at helping others? In order to feel good with themselves, they feel the need to help others. Therefore here you will find the best psychologist, who can easily tap into his clients unconscious, the gentlest nurse who helps the sick, the mother who sacrifices everything in order to ensure her daughter feature or the most brilliant and emphatic actor who can totally embrace his character psychologically. This is the house where a person needs time to develop and grow himself in order to become the brilliant person he only dared to dream about! 

A few words about me

My name is Diana, i am 28 years old and I'm an astrology nerd! I have Sun in Cancer in the 12th house, Asc in Cancer, Moon in Sagittarius in the 5th house, Mercury in Cancer in the 12th house, Mars and Venus in Leo in the 2nd house, Jupiter in Gemini in the 12th house, Uranus, Saturn and Neptune in the 6th house and Pluto in the 4th. My MC in Aries and NN in Aquarius in the 8th house.

My work will be about description of the planets. Sun, Moon, Mercury, Mars, Venus, Jupiter, Uranus, Neptune, Pluto, NN, true Lilith and Chiron signification in the all 12th astrological houses. Natal placements descriptions also synastry aspects, overlays and composite charts. I always pour my heart and my soul in everything that i do so please be patient! :)

Thanks for reading and I hope it's been useful to you!